14 Nisan 2021, Salı
saat: 01:43
well it has been very very long till my last writing. I hanged on an illusion and on a drug addict relationship last month. ı forgot that no body in this life is going to love me. Even if the say they love me a lot , they would be selfish and never really care. never will care... Because their soul would never be sensitive. No one will ever love me and I will have to remember this always not to expect and get broken again and again. not to expect and be free of desire be free of expectation. Yes no one will ever love me in this life. Because love s not some sweet words love should be unconditional and sacrificing. I dont want anything less, love is deep emphathy ... Love is giving freedom. I dont want fake loves because if I love it is for sure and ı dont want the fake ones moving around. Now this guy Shai... this old man who imagined to marry, who told me he loved me more than anyone... All was a lie ... He didnt know what love was... He was totally selfish, he wanted his pleasures to be satisfied... I hate him forever! I hate him more because I believed in him... It doesnt matter that ı broke it matters all the trust I had put on him from before and he totally broke my heart .. He is gone from my life for how he behaved me now also. He lost me and my desire to him forever... I will Now I need to know that and remember that ı will be always alone in this life and will remember my inner love and never forget that ... I will always walk alone and I wont forget my mystic path. That s my only companianship.. All the other people I will stay away stay away .... Done...
