14 Şubat 2012, Salı saat: 08:30 i've been frustrated and i talked about it and somehow it turned out to be ok. i am pretty sure i was the first the fill out the survey since i did it within ten minutes of them sending the email. and the neuropsych activity was my first choice. i think that's why sh felt the need to explain to me how they tried to put together people on the same campus, except forgetting he screwed it up by putting me on the same team with my roommate, we work on different campuses. i am grateful about how it turned at the end, i am just hoping the booths will be as far away as possible. similar to public speaking, i had a physiological reaction to it, i get palpitations which go away slowly. maybe the reaction would have been less severe if the names were separate. the fear of what might happen has taken over, i don't even care about what might actually happen. i should care right, i should feel something? we talk and talk and then, nothing... also dear, mon cher, don't you do me any favors by offering to hang out. -how are you feeling today? -cynical. and snappish. lovely combination huh? jane