09 Şubat 2015, Pazartesi saat: 17:40 A Diary of Procrastination: I’d write a new chapter but I hate my dataset. I’d write a new chapter if I could just get the time to read through these journals I picked up at the bookstore/library/I keep receiving because I really have to keep up on the trends, you know? So first, first I’ll do that. I’d write a new chapter but the department could use some more work out of me so let me ask my advisor for a list of work and see what I can help with. I’d write a new chapter but I have this application to put together and if I don’t do well then I won’t get funding, and if I don’t get funding then I’ll have a lot of debt. And if I don’t have an amazing resume then I won’t be able to find a job that I want and if I don’t find a job then I won’t be able to pay off the debt I do have. I’d write a new chapter but I need to go shopping for more things I don’t need but that will temporarily fill the gaping hole where my soul used to be. I’d write a new chapter but that one journal made a point to tell me they liked my work but just not enough to publish the pieces I sent them and to try again sometime & it was like Monopoly but the times where you don’t get to pass GO. So, like, I’m really sad and existential about it, you know? I’d write a new chapter if my life wasn’t the same as it was a year ago except for a bit more progress and a lot more responsibilities. I’d write a new chapter if I didn’t always have to write something about writing something. It’s a hard life. You don’t understand. larissa