22 Mayýs 2015, Cuma
saat: 13:56
Field Notes, Day 1:
Travel is beautifully harrowing. Everything is taken away from you; nothing is truly yours -at least, not in the same way they are yours at home. When traveling, you have no bed, you have no shower, you have none of your friends, you have no family, no backyard, no car, nothing. Of course, you can rent and find these during your travels, but they are different from the comfort and security that these things normally provide at home. This sudden dispossession of everything I have in exchange for the uncertainty that is travel was what was gnawing at me incessantly on my flight to here. I knew not a soul out of the 11 million people in the country, and I knew as much French as a 1-year old baby -all these triggering fantasies of moving my return flight back home to the soonest possible date.
But as soon as I stepped out of the plane, I reminded myself that the future held an infinite number of possibilities for me. I had no idea what I would be doing in a week, a day, or an hour; I didn’t even know who I would be meeting in a few seconds. But none of that bothered me anymore. I didn’t feel anxious. Instead, not knowing what was going to happen with my life over the next weeks caused adrenaline to course through my veins, and so the adventure began.
Field Notes, Day 3:
“To travel is to discover that everyone is wrong about other countries.”
The last three days have been a blast! The country is brilliant, I'm so exhausted but having the best time! The girl I am staying with is so lovely and I was trying to not seem antisocial but I might a bit seem like that with jetlag and generally just being awkward as heck :/ But later on I managed to make friends! Thank God for my awesome friends who have local connections here, they introduced me to their friends in town, and I met their friends, and with this pretty nice snowballing effect, I immediately felt at home! Everyone has been so helpful and nice that it's amazing! Internet has been spazzy for me, though, and so I’m coming to the library of an American research center to do some work and writing and send emails almost every day. Yeah, I do sort of love my life right now, I do sort of have a damn fine intuition and my blind courage pays off sometimes :) Squeee! Happy!
