20 Aðustos 2015, Perþembe
saat: 22:39
It’s been bugging me the past couple of weeks as I haven’t had a chance to actually sit and write for a while.. I know I could probably cut down on the workouts and coursework-related activities, but honestly they’re keeping me relatively sane and feeling somewhat accomplished.
Plus I’ve only started to slowly slip back into research mode. And to be perfectly honest I didn’t really want to get to that stage quite just yet. I’ve been enjoying the subtle quietness that my brain had for a little while when it was in teacher mode. Granted that mode was still really loud and there was a lot going on in my head at any given point in time, but at least there was a time to process and organise those thoughts as they moved relatively easily in and out of my head and in a more logical pattern that was conducive to explaining things to people.
That in contrast to my research brain mode, which moves laterally and in 3000 directions at once, branching at lightning speeds in multiple ways that interlink and correlate information to the point where it starts to hurt trying to keep up with it. And people notice this too as my speech pattern gets a lot faster and I stumble over words. I change topics mid sentence and change sides of my opinion three times in that same period. People generally start to look at you like a crazy person as it ends up being a one sided argument with yourself with occasional interjections from the person you’re actually meant to be talking to. You can kind of get why I don’t really like that side of my brain too much. Great for general social interaction as you can imagine. I just need to make sure I pull myself out of it briefly next weekend when I’m teaching so I don’t sound like a rambling lunatic haha.
Thus the semester–and the eternal struggle–begins again.
