21 Mayıs 2016, Cumartesi
saat: 05:10
7-8 ay once tanimadigin bir insana bu kadar baglanmak nedir lan
hay hormonuna feromonuna amigdalana cortexine SICAYIM
Kendini baska biriyle tanimlamaya basladigin an boku yemis oluyorsun dimi?
Ask dedikleri de o bence.
Aynaya bakinca kendi yuzunde onu goruyorsan mesela sictin.
Eskiden de olmustu bu. 2. defa oluyor.
15 dakikacik yaninda uzansam, 3 dakikacik sarilsam, 5 kere opsem sanki birdenbire iyi oluverecek gibiyim.
Eroini kesilen eroinman gibi got gibi bir ruh haliyle kaldim amk.
Bu kadar baglandiysam ben 6 ayda...
demek ki bir anda sebepsiz terk etse sikilmis tavuga donecem tekrar. 2.sefer.
Long distance'ina sicayim.
Turkiyene sicayim.
Almanyana sicayim.
sacinin telini, gozunu, burnunu, elini, kolunu ozledim lan.
BESIDES,
still in the progress of writing my damn paper. I told my advisor that it is gonna be ready by this evening and it is totally NOT.
I have not worked out yet, and I ate a fucking cookie. I didn't even enjoy it because I was bursting into tears at the time. I cried my ass off once again.
Do whatever the fuck you do, but don't cry when your sinuses are already blocked. It is the dumbest thing you can possibly do. Whatever mucus you have just doubles making breathing practically impossible. Then you end up opening your mouth to breathe like a fucking street dog.
This paper is going to be DONE. Poster is going to be DONE. the poster presentation is going to be DONE. You WILL get ready and you WILL FUCKING WALK OUT OF HERE.
10 days to KISS MY ASS GOODBYE.
HEY!!! You are NOT dependent NOR addicted to anyone. You are just plain in LOVE, and that is absolutely FINE.
Finish this and go home.
Workout. Eat well. Stay cool.
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BY THE WAY, OROSPU COCUGU E. I HOPE YOU DIE A PAINFUL DEATH SOON AND ROT IN HELL. THAT IS WHAT I AM PRAYING FOR EVERY SINGLE FUCKING NIGHT.
ONE DAY IT WILL COME TRUE. AND IT WILL BE SOON.
YOU DON'T DESERVE A SINGLE MOMENT IN THIS WORLD YOU FILTHY LIAR.
I WILL SPIT ON YOUR GRAVE.
ASSHOLE.
