19 Mart 2018, Pazartesi
saat: 20:03
I must get ready soon. I tell myself this.
There is plenty to be done. I tell myself this, too.
It is this inexorable element of living, that to live is to do & to be & by being thus become.
Sometimes I grow weary of all this becoming.
I don’t know what I’m doing most of the time. I waste a lot of it. I try not to, but I’m mostly exhausted on most days and so I really ought to just suck it up. do things anyway. full acceptance that I’m just going to keep feeling guilty for not working hard enough. No matter what. It's never enough. You don't know where the bar is set, so you keep pushing yourself on and on, because tenure depends on that, right?
That's what grad school does to you, kids, that's what grad school does to you.
