20 Kasım 2018, Pazartesi
saat: 00:49


Once again I can't sleep. I started thinking about my time in Germany. How it has been. And still nothing is at the point where I wanted it to be. I still feel alone, weak, and like a stranger.

"Entfremdung"

Nobody feels familiar at times.

I feel like a stranger even to my own parents. To my husband even.

I have no belief into anyone, incluing myself, no attachment to any philosophy, and no religion as well.

I am also tired of hearing that I am strong.

It doesn't mean jack shit when I don't feel like it.


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