01 Mayýs 2021, Cumartesi
saat: 22:04
just did a grading task I’ve been putting off for two weeks, where is my medal?
as you all know I’ve been very down on my job lately—mostly because I am SO tired of endless complaints and excuses from a certain group of privileged students, and also I just miss the vibrant social and intellectual life of the university so much!!!! it requires an increasingly herculean effort to get inspired and motivated about work when everyone else is so checked out, and I feel like it’s maybe become even more unbearable because we’re getting so close to the end of it. my graduating seniors keep rescheduling their check-in meetings this week or dropping in for five min to tell me that they are really, definitely, absolutely working on their projects TONIGHT and that’s why they don’t have anything done yet. I think I am a pretty sympathetic and flexible teacher on the whole but at some point you’re like how many urgent life-threatening illnesses can a student have in the span of a nine-month academic year, all somehow occurring right around big deadlines. ugh it drives me nuts because--even though i know i shouldn't--i end up taking it personally, as a slight to my intelligence. like... just tell me what's up! you really think I'm this stupid?!
I have horrible cramps today and I WILL be complaining about it all day.
