10 Ocak 2022, Pazartesi
saat: 13:49
So I made my new years' resolutions and I started working on them.
The first clause is reading more books. With the birth of my son I have been reading almost only on child care, physcological development of children, self development etc. I promised myself to read all the books in my library which have been pending for quite a long time. I already started my 4th book 2 days ago and I started to feel like a teenager as that was the time I was living in a pile of books- my mum used to hide my books thinking I would sit down and study/do homework instead.
Second is to do some workout every morning.This was something I was doing for a while but I usually give up at some point. This time I decided to force myself and keep it as a routine in my daily life.I am aware that I always have a tendancy to postpone things and not having a stability in life.So I will do my best to change this structure deliberately.
I started to take cold showers. This was something I saw in various places- used as a technique to heal trauma. And I thought it is worth trying.I feel like I can't breath under cold wate which-they say- shows the effect of childhood trauma on my body.
I will be less critical on people. I am usually critised for always seeing the bad side of everything and being a pessimist so I will work on that and do my best to stop my negative thoughts.
I think I can achieve it as being aware of yourself is the first step in all these processes.
I tought my son to hug and love himself everyday. So everyday we ask each other -did you hug yourself today? And seeing him hug himself and be so kind and say things line I love you, you are such a perfect soul, great child, full of love... this melts my heart and I learn how I can love myself too .
