29 Ocak 2022, Cumartesi
saat: 12:33
Under the name of love I was imprisoned in a small selfish heart for very long 8 months. Today I am feeling I am free from fake names of love and fake show of compassion which doesnt actually exist in the real life. Becasue for the small selfish heart everything has to be calculated . If you give something you lose and if you get something you gain such is the small calculations of my longest relation that all the time told me he loved me but he actually never ever loved me. For all this 8 months I beleieved in this illusionary love which actually only was words it didnt have any correspondance in real life. I even proposed him to marry me his face went white with fear and reaction. Such is the big love of him. When he spends some money for me he cant but would mention it and use it every time. I guess I wouldnt be able to find a worse loving perrson. Such is a fake love such is a fake relationship. And today I am free , I am free from selfish games... Today I am free I m looking to horizon and I want my heart and soul to fly and color itself again. Under the prison of selfishness I died I want to be reborn again.
