16 Nisan 2022, Cumartesi
saat: 17:05
I’ve been in such an odd and uncharacteristic funk for a big chunk of late February/early March but the ISA and the farm vacation may have cured me? I definitely did pull my first all-nighter before the conference finishing my paper and making last-minute adjustments before sending it off to get feedback, but I'm so happy with how it turned out and how well organized our panel was! I also feel a bit calmer just in general... I got a bunch of stuff done even when we were in this little gorgeous house in the middle of nowhere and taking trips to nearby cities with A. and I have been making a concerted effort to spend more time reading books and less time doomscrolling. I think I maybe just needed to get away, sleep a lot, get more intellectually stimulating conversations, or alternatively truly turn my brain off for a bit?? I remember asking for allowance to simply exist and I feel like I was given this wonderful gift of inner peace in the last couple of weeks -it's like, wow, look at that - give me a little structure & some social contact & a dash of purposeful work and I’m cured of my existential ennui, baby!!
In the meantime, the end of the semester is fast approaching!! it feels both very sudden and like it’s been a long time coming, lol. I can already tell the summer’s going to fly by again. I’ll be traveling for basically all of May-August, and then god knows what I’ll be doing in September/October - hopefully working on my papers somewhere in Europe and coming back to the States in mid-October to attend another lovely conference?
A journey, after all, neither begins in the instant we set out, nor ends when we have reached our door step once again. It starts much earlier and is really never over, because the film of memory continues running on inside of us long after we have come to a physical standstill. Indeed, there exists something like a contagion of travel, and the disease is essentially incurable.
Ryszard Kapuscinski - Travels with Herodotus
